For my comfort or Your Glory?

Psalms 31:3

For You are my rock and my fortress; For Your name's sake You will lead me and guide me.

The Psalms are filled with it - cries for the Lord's leading in life.  As I struggle to connect with God the way I used to, I cry out for His leading in my life, for guidance and wisdom. This has been going on for months, with no prevail of comfort. I wrestle with myself, wondering what I am doing wrong. Why does it seem like the Lord is being silent in these times of me crying out to him? 

I have always struggled with pride and control, and within that, I like the comfort of knowing what is going to happen. I am the type who likes to have a plan and know what to expect. Can I get an "amen"? I know I am not the only one. Within this struggle, I have realized that my constant prayers for direction from the Lord was another cry for comfort. I have not been willing to listen and follow wherever He lead me or desired for me to bring Him glory. I simply wanted to know my life was in control and know what was going to happen next. 

Matthew 6:24

Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

Why want control of what will happen next. The simple act of desiring to know is a grasp at control. I am not promised tomorrow, and beyond that, not promised the next minutes. So what is the Lord's will? 

Isaiah 43:7 

Everyone who is called by my name, whom I created for my glory, whom I formed and made. 

The Lord created everything for His glory. He is a jealous God. He wants His glory. So praying for direction may be a good thing, it is shown throughout the Psalms and throughout the Bible. So when faced with options in life, asking which will bring the Lord more glory may be a better question than asking the Lord for specified direction. 

John 17:18 

The one who speaks on his own authority seeks his own glory; but the one who seeks the glory of him who sent him is true, and in him there is no falsehood. 

Jesus sought out his Father's glory. He was always pointing beyond himself to his Father in Heaven. How amazing is that? Jesus (being God himself) pointing beyond himself... This is something I do not see myself mastering until my days in Heaven - but it is something I will strive for daily. 

Not for my own comfort, but for His glory.